Finding Strength Amid Loss and Change
"I just never thought I would be on this path, dealing with so much loss and grief, forcing me to change, but to what?"
It's a sentiment many can relate to, yet few feel prepared to face. Life has a way of leading us down unexpected roads, sometimes with challenges that feel insurmountable.
I suppose we really don't know how strong and resilient we can be until we are forced to try, it becomes a matter of sink or swim really.
Grief and loss strip us of our sense of direction, leaving us questioning not only where we’re going ,but who we are meant to become and if what we thought we knew was really right.
I thought that facing my failed marriage after 21 years was tough, or fighting and beating cancer 2 times was tough, being a recovering addict or even losing my mom was going to be the toughest challenges ever, well.... I was so very wrong
nothing ever prepares you for the loss of your child, or in my case children.
I am really not sure which is worse the suicide with no answers (or answers that make no sense) or the drug overdose where you had some answers but come to find out they were all wrong.
I suppose you will get a lot of wrong information from someone who was blasted out of their mind on drugs,
but it still makes you question everything you ever knew or are going to know.
Embracing Reinvention: Moving Forward with Purpose
Moving forward, I find myself at a crossroads where reinvention is no longer a choice, but a necessity. Who I was before came with lessons that cost me a great deal, and it’s clear that change is essential in order to grow and discover new safe, healthy ways to live.
While it’s not always easy to let go of the past,or try to find a way to live with grief, but I am starting to understand that holding onto the old version of myself will only keep me frozen in a bad head space..
Maybe we get put on these journeys of transformation as an opportunity to build a stronger purpose, values and aspirations, leaving behind the mistakes and limitations of the past.
Reinvention isn’t about erasing who I was—it’s about learning, evolving, and moving forward with intention and resilience.
I pray for strength and peace.
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